there really nothing really in this horrible disgusting world for me ne more. i have nothing 2 live by or ne thin. everyone just seem 2 treat me horrible and says "go fuckin kill yourself" that basically what i hear all the time at skool. my rents can care less about me all they do is yell at me for bout everythin it pisses me off all the time. i'm usually depressed or pissed off but it varys. i'm cutting again and drinking more than i usual do. the only coping skill is cutting and drinking nothing else seems 2 matter. also i don't fuckin care about my famliy i just want 2 kill all of them. which i'm trying 2 do. trying 2 find a death spell 2 kill my famliy i really don't fuckin care ne more i'm tired of all this shit its like i dont matter to ne one i'm not important ne more. so i'm still suicidal and becoming homcidal again. when i was younger i was also trying 2 kill my lil sister by choking her. rite now i just wanna kill someone cuz i already hurt myself so no i need 2 kill someone. i think i've said enough and srry for not putting up another post early in the month oh well ne way ja ne

~Forbidden Moon Child of Darkness